For the record…
i know the general consensous was that my new tunes were better than the old stuff (in terms of songwriting, melodies etc), or maybe they werent, but the vibes were different and was much more where i was at the time, and i think as songs Supercollider, Sometimes, Fade Out etc are way more advanced in terms of songwriting BUT for those who didnt like them as much, or thought the old stuff is better, you have absolutely no idea about my music and COMPLETELY mis-took what the whole point is/was. You are out of your depth, quite simply. Time to go home and listen to radio1 or kerrang or something. Tunes are about a vibe and its not really something i can explain easily anyway, but i genuniely think that a tune like ‘Fucker’ from my old home demos (the one with a tambourine) shits all over most of the stuff we have recorded coz its just raw rock n roll energy. and that is it essentially, why would you want more? why have another verse on She Blows My Mind? these things are not even in the equation, why sound MORE polished, hey, lets sound LESS polished, lets sound MORE out of time, lest DE TUNE out instruments lightly. if this band is going anywhere, it is to those places.
LETS GO FOR A RIDE.
And these, which will never see the light of day…I just like owning them
Must must must must must must must have this hairstyle and generally look this cool.
Updatez
Been out of play for the last week or so. Some shit going down, work, finishing work, nights out, birdz. This 2 week placement is a good place to calm things down and step out of the craziness for a bit. Handed my work in on Monday and I was quite happy with the standard, cue mad night out on Monday and cue bird who is the current object of my affection (girl 1) sleeping over. Wednesday…my mates surprise b/day went down a storm with a lot of me mates coming round, girl 1 is meant to be staying with me, but i go back to girl 2’s house, then return to mine to see girl 1. Thursday, girl 1 comes over to stay the night and we have a lovely evening, stay up all night (really) talking. Starting to actually feel stuff for her, which is a good escape from the previous bird. Friday she tells me she’s falling in love with me. That took me by surprise. Anyway, over the weekend the previous bird also says she is still in love with me…not that bothered. But still, all good. Lots of love being spread around it seems.
This will all go nowhere though.
[Flash 9 is required to listen to audio.]
Found this on my laptop…Supercollider (acoustic)
Making a playlist for Wednesday night…listening to R U Mine and generally feeling pretty powerful…oh and my hair is becoming colossal.
Fookin reet
More shite…
“Sunshine, drowns the shore where the sea should be. Not now perhaps. The tide is out.”
Anyway, I get texts all weekend saying how much I am missed etc, naturally I bite as I have nothing else of any note going on right now, apart from a lot of work, and to be honest I appreciate the distraction. So all is rosy and good, then the next day, after I have reciprocated these feelings I get a load of shit because I have supposedly given one of her friends a dirty look. Wha??! How old are we? 13? And again, I am public enemy number one. If it didnt make me feel like shit Id probably laugh. How someone can go from one feeling of emotional outpouring one day, into a real disregard the next I dont know. Unfortunately, one must fear and sense mental unstability that perhaps compromise said individuals abilities to ever truly be happy and in love. Maybe. I am just the emotional punch bag where all this unstability can vent. Anyhow, I have told her that she is never to speak to me again, but weather that lasts I dont know. She didnt even seem that bothered by it. A real Jekyll and Hyde character, the bad one (who’s who escapes me) is one of the most unpleasant people ive ever met, whereas the good one (Hyde perhaps?) is one of the sweetest, loveliest people I have ever met. Its a shame these things cannot be simpler.
What next, I wonder.
*apologies for the pretentious style of writing. I am bored as fuck.
